Sometimes pt. 1

Sometimes I’m afraid that if there’s not somebody with me I’m going to fall inside myself.

and I don’t know what’s in there…

so, I’m not sure if it’s safe to go in alone.

But… I’m not sure if it’s safe to go in at all,

so I don’t want to bring you.

I don’t want to fall and have you jump to save me

I don’t want that at all.

I just want to feel… different, better, somehow.

Somtimes I feel like “oops, I’ve fallen in” and I’m deep and I can’t swim because I’m disoriented and up and down are the same place and every mirror is the same face,

but I don’t recognize her at all.